My Speech from Senior Year at Loma...wow!

http://www.mp3hunting.com/april-30th-2007-senior-relections-sam-nichols-jovonne-dempster-shea-foley.e5dhq.html

No Marriage for Sarah Silverman Until Gay Marriage is Legal (VIDEO) - Inside TV

No Marriage for Sarah Silverman Until Gay Marriage is Legal (VIDEO) - Inside TV

Malkia Roberts ( 1923 ), "Spectrum" Acrylic on canvas 1972

This image, according to the artist, represents acceptance of the present and anticipation of the future. The woman is the past, and the Expressionistic style and upward gaze symbolize the future. The flame-like palette "eliminates the possibility of negative space and ensuing objectivity" (203).

From: Henkes, Robert. The Art of Black American Women - Works of Twenty - Four Artists of the Twentieth Century. McFarland & Company Inc. Publishers : Jefferson, North Carolina, 1993,147.

A transformation of a space

is the mathematical definition of reflection. In grad school we would call that critically analyzing, but for the purpose of this blog we'll keep it focused solely on reflection. I got to feel the reflections of the sun (rays) for the last two days. We have had constant gray skies and the break was AMAZING! It's funny to see how much the sun enhances my ability to be optimistic and appreciative. The sun allowed me to take space from the worries of the world and spend some time basking in the savior rays in solitude. I spent the days finding opportunities to be outside as much and as long as possible. The nights of sleep were greater as well. These nights I went to bed in a clean and well organized room and allowed the crisp cool air of the night gently tuck me into bed. I fantasized about my future love and was able to see clear...so, so clear. I wasn't concerned about social issues and didn't lay awake at night depressed about power and privilege. I was calm, healthy, and happy.

So that is what I got from two days of seeing clear blue skies and feeling the heat on my Brown skin. Thinking about the way the sun hits my face is making me smile now :). I love reflections...reflections about people, the reflection of my face, and the way we as humans reflect each other. With this I have decided to start a mirror collection. I want to see how I am reflected differently in each random mirror. I want to know how people see me, how they perceive me, so that I may know how to better see them.

Esta Aqui.

I'm here. I arrived in Humboldt County on Tuesday and already I've gotten a taste of what it's going to be like. I first have to start off by saying that I miss my home. I miss belonging. I miss familiarity. I miss my life. I am optimistic for what's to come and know that God has not forsaken nor left me. I have met some amazing people in my program who are going to be a great support network for me. I'm actually quite interested to see what those relationships will look like. My program itself looks to be a little challenging. I think that academically I'll be alright as long as time management and I reconnect. It actually is this whole idea of internships that stress me out. It is inevitable that I will have to work in the outskirts of town. So far my experience with that has been kinda "Redneck" and scary. I'm not afraid of a challenges, but I think this is gonna be an interesting journey.

I have a feeling I'll be blogging a lot during these next 2 years. A LOT!

Processing my soon to be transition.

Guilt: Feelings of culpability from a sense of inadequacy or self-reproach.

This is so how I've been feeling lately. Work has consumed so much of my life. The fiscal year finally ended on June 30th and now I am preparing to move. Family members and friends have all been feeling neglected.

Now, it's time to focus on the move. My last day of work is August 14th and I leave to drive 16 hours to Humboldt County so that I can start a new beginning to my life as a professional. I guess I should be excited about it but I'm not. I feel like I've been letting a lot of people down lately because I haven't been there enough. I am sick of feeling like I have to choose between friends and family. To be honest I think this pink eye is getting the best of me today.

I guess I just feel guilty about a lot of things, I hope that this doesn't continue for much longer!

She gave me my name!

I'm so over people dying! R.I.P Grandma Yvonne, you'll be missed :(